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You know this post it's for you. I will try my best to write something well and capture what i feel.

I have to tell you yestarday was amazing, talk with you two hours steadily about everything it was all for me. I know our situation, more mine than yours, is difficult because of the distance but it doesn't matters at all, not for me.

When i told you were my summer crush, my throat was thirsty, my hand was shakin and the only thing i can thought was "God, please, please give me the words to say her this". I was so scare beacause what happens if you told me that you didn't feel anything about me? Too many feeling in just five seconds of silence... then you told my that five words "You are my crush too", i died and came back to life, i swear, it was so greatful and pleasurable heard that. Next we kept talking, just talking and i thought "How this it gonna work? I want this really works but, how?" I hate myself so much for think too much stupid things when important stuff it's happening. I don't know but after thinking that i get cheesy, really cheesy, you noticed. My mind was scare and the words came strumbling, more and more. I guess you can remember how i tried to whisper you "I miss the cruise... i miss all the people... i miss you...". Damn, i miss you, it's badly for me the way i miss you but i can't do anything, love choose people. 

I wanna call you every morning because it is the only thing i can do, ask how was your day, talk for hours until dark in both places, see you again and comply my promise, hug you and more and tell a lot of jokes just to hear your laugh. 

Remember, i will keep my promise until i comply.

Now i'm going to write in spanish just a little thing, use a translate or i can help you. You can choose.

Cuando me dijiste que te gustaba, me alegre, tal vez demasiado pero fue muy corta la sensación, me puse inmediatamente triste porque ahora sabía que no te podría ver cada día. Es injusto como la distancia separa a las personas. No voy a dejar de sentir esto por ti de un día para otro, tendrá que pasar mucho tiempo para que éste crush se empiece a disipar. Me lamento una y otra vez no haberte dicho esto en el último día del crucero cuando te abracé en las escaleras y me marché cabizbajo deseando besarte porque sabía que no te iba a volver a ver. Aún quiero hacerlo.

Podría escribir un millón de cosas más pero prefiero hablarlo contigo las noches en las que te pueda llamar o reservarme algo para cuando te vea.

Y tranquila, yo sé que tú también ponías canciones con un significado cuando nos cantabamos por snapchat. Yo aún lo sigo haciendo.